The Making of a Mommy: Our Old Friend

Thursday, November 12, 2009

Our Old Friend

The final pathology is in -- it's the same lymphoma.

Tomorrow morning, when were were supposed to be meeting with our new RE, we will instead be at the hospital so Mike can get a PET/CT scan. We will meet again with the doctor next Wednesday.

Our fifth wedding anniversary is also tomorrow.

6 comments:

Nikki said...: I've been thinking so much about you and Mike. Wishing you the very best in everything. If there is anything I can do to help, please just holler. Seriously. Anything at all.

((Hugs)) and wishing the two of you many many happy years together.; November 13, 2009 at 12:23 AM
Caroline said...: You are in my thoughts and prayers.; November 13, 2009 at 12:46 AM
Rash said...: You are in my thoughts and prayers.

((Hugs)); November 13, 2009 at 6:33 AM
Nichole said...: Oh Lauren - I am so sorry! What horrible timing and a horrible thing to have to go through AGAIN.
I am so sorry that you once again have to postpone your trip to the RE - I can't imagine how dissapointing that must be for both of you.

I am praying for you - I am so sorry; November 13, 2009 at 9:49 AM
Courtney said...: I'm so sorry Lauren. You and Mike are in my prayers. I'm here if you ever need to talk.; November 13, 2009 at 7:49 PM
Anonymous said...: I am sorry for you and Mike. My thoughts and prayers are with you.; December 14, 2009 at 3:32 PM

Where We've Been....

July 2001 -- Mike and I start dating (a long-distance relationship with 4.5 hours between us -- lots of weekend driving).
February 2003 -- Mike is diagnosed with lymphoma. He banks his sperm twice before beginning chemo, radiation, and having a bone-marrow transplant (he has 13 vials). He spends over a year recovering and rebuilding his strength and immune system.
December 2003 -- Mike proposes and we get engaged!
November 2004 -- We get married, and shortly thereafter I move the 4.5 hours to be with him -- no more long-distance romance!
September 2006 -- Mike is diagnosed with a recurrence of his cancer and begins several months of radiation treatment. Three weeks after getting the cancer news, we are blessed with a phone call from a relative saying we can begin our search for an IVF clinic -- the attempt will be taken care of, free of charge.
December 2006 -- we have our first consultation with our RE, and she recommends IVF over IUI, due to our limited sperm supply.
April/May 2007 -- We plunge into our first IVF attempt, but it does not work. We are left with five frozen embies, in addition to 12 vials of sperm.
June 2007 -- I am just weeks away from starting estrace to prepare for a frozen embryo transfer when we find out Mike has another recurrence of cancer.
July 2007 -- Mike begins chemo, which continues until September.
November 2007 -- Mike returns to work!
March 2008 -- We're ready to try the FET! I begin estrace and monitoring.
April 2008 -- We transfer two embies, but again it does not work.
Summer 2008 - Fall 2011 -- We took a break until we could get health insurance that covers IVF, but more importantly until Mike tried to beat yet more cancer recurrences.
October 14, 2011 -- My world is shattered when Mike succumbs to cancer.
Present -- Trying to learn how to live without my best friend and lover. Trying to figure out what kind of future I can possibly have. Trying to decide if I will/can ever fulfill my dream of having a child.